I figure the only way to deal with all the crap going on is to get it out. I hesitate putting this out on “the interwebs” but whatever. I just feel shitty. I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised as I am about to head to church, but good grief…this sucks. It’s not physical though it certainly shows up with physical symptoms, but I just get so tired of scrutinizing every single aspect of myself. I hold myself up to ridiculous standards, and instead of tackling anything, I shun everything. I check out. TV on, brain off. If I am doomed to fail at everything, why try anything? Blah, blah, blah…these are not new thoughts, but dang if I wish I could just “snap out of it.”
Blarg. Too personal? Probably. Thank God for edit/delete buttons.